Natural speed please. I would like to hear your natual English just like when you are talking about it to someone.
I think it is very important that you accept yourself, including your weaknesses and downside. Then if you can do that, you will not feel fear to let others see who you are. You will be able to be more comfortable when you are with others than you were before.
People are quite sensitive in the area of human relationships. They can tell if you are relaxed or not when you are with them. I think knowing yourself is the first step to building a good relationship with people.
I used to be a person who had a strong guard so as not to let others see me. I was an arm-clad chicken. I am glad that I have been disarming myself gradually, and I have tried to accept myself including my weak parts.
I am not good at cleaning.
Well, is it one of my bad parts? I don't know~ ( ^v^ ) /