First, I would like to ask you “how have you been?” or “what have you been doing recently?”. I tried texting you before and it sucks that I was just left on seen.. I only wanted to have a conversation with you. I am out of my mind and I want to try doing whatever it takes to get over you.
Getting over you is hard. It’s actually extremely hard whenever I see you having fun with other people. It really fucking sucks, you know. Yet, I’m glad that you might be doing well without me. Perhaps, one day, we will get to confront each other and have a full conversation. Ultimately, I would like us to be friends. I’m not sure whether you want that. The silence between us is killing me. When I see you with your other friends, having a nice talk, it hurts.
Last week, it really felt like we were ending our relationship on good terms. Today, however, felt like the opposite when you didn’t want to even talk to me or look at me. Maybe in your view, I was awful and I apologize a million times for that. I beg for you to just talk to me. Please do not treat me as a stranger or even worse than that..
I’m not sure how you feel right now and maybe you are treating me this way just to get over me.
I would also like to talk about whether I should return the stuff you’ve given me.. Since they are just taking space in my room and it is quite hard to look at all of it. Oh well.. I also wonder if you have already chosen someone to be with and moved on with some other girl… though, that is not a great thing to wonder about and I would prefer it that you don’t tell me. I will give you all the respect and space that you need as long as I am your friend and that you don’t move onto a person I dislike or a person who is my friend. I hope that you agree with that too.
